Running . -_-

iwas trying to get away .
From everyone & everything.
From responsibility, heartbreak, pain , lies, truth.
iwas running from L i F E .
And i made my way to you .
You were all i needed ,
All i dreamt of ,
All i ever wanted to be .
Then something happened.
And now i found that ive been missing everything.
iwas trying to get away.
Running away from L i F E .
But now all im running from is You.

Sick of today.

Everyday is constant battle.
iLose myself in all this bullshit.
iDc , bout what anyone has to say.
Or maybe i care so much tht it kills me.
IDontKnow.
Im mad at you for leaving when yu said yu never would.
im mad at the ppl who judge before they know.
im mad at everyone who doesnt understand.
im mad youre so far away .
im mad icnt see your face.
or hold your hand.
im mad tht ppl die over stupid shit.
im just mad.
FUCK the world .
im Just sick of today.
Waiting to see what tmro brings.

iStand Alone.

ilost myself in this thing icall life.

So i stand alone.

Sometimes idk who i am.

or who i want to be.

& no one understnds.

or maybe no one wants to,

maybe no one even tries.

no one gets it.

so i stay away.

away from everyone who used to care.

away from everyone who pretends to care.

away from everyone who wants to.

away from anyone who can hurt me.

Leaves me alone , but maybe thts best.

ilost myself in this thing i call life.

& now i stand alone.

Silent Stares.

ilove how yuu stare at me. -_-
maybe not a stare, jus a look icnt define.
like yu have something to say,
all the thoughts lockd in yur mind.
all the feelinqs yu try to hide,
"i adore you"s turnd to "goodbyes"
its no use,iforget to even try.
you said move on, where do i go ?
ill be w others, ill rub it in ur face.
but we both kno whats really goin on,
yu jus want my warm embrace
and i jus want the truth.
but i gues i already have tht,
cause in ur silent stares,
in yur one-word answers,
ifind what im lookin for.
ican see everything you trying so hard to disguise.
ican see tht more than anything, yu still care.

See you Later.

Theres so many things iwant to tell you , Dont know if you can hear, it gets hard to breathe & ive shed too many tears. Its not fair, one day yur here, the next yu dissapear. See when you left, a part of me was lost . A part of me went wondering, a part of me got ghost. See you held what so many nikkas lack . A part of me died, and im just tryna get it back. But icant get back if im holding it all in. So ill say it all out, hope you understand .

- ive been holding on to something thts already GONE. making myself sick . Alienating myself from everyone whos trying to be there for me. everyone whos trying to care. So now i have to let you go. Know tht ill forever Love you , always miss you , & never forget . ijust have to get better. So im saying - G o o d b y e . Or better yet, see you later.