Missinq Him.

iRealized how much i miss him today. he hit me up. at first i thouqht oh qod wah did i do wronq now. but then . . . idk . i did nothinq wronq. he just wanted to tLk. and tht feLt so qood. cause were friends. but we havent tLkd in a whiLe.... tLkinq to him feLt qood. feLt Like oLd times when he used to hit me up every niqht. & wed jus tlk about nothinq. & even thouqh we were tlkin about absolutely nothinq- it felt magical. it feLT right. imiss him so much. we qave eachother so many chances, so many times to qet it riqht, yet we faiLed everytime. everytime we watched "Us" falL apartt. "Us" became " him " & "i" . then we became "Us" aqain. & this repeated too many times to even count. we qot to the point we realized it wasnt workinq. For the Lonqest time i thouqht it was my fauLt. iWasnt pretty enouqh, or sexy enouqh, or smart enouqh, or funny enouqh. it hurt. but then i realized it wasnt tht at alL. it just wasnt workinq.& maybe one day we couLd try aqain. but for now this is whats best. because i couldnt take it anymore. because he couldnt take it anymore. because breakinq up & makeinq up, fiqhtin & yelLinq, back & forth every day. it became too much to handLe. too much to take.so we qave up. or did we really? idk. Maybe Fate wilL brinq us back toqether. Maybe we`lL jus be friends . who knows. alL i know is. iM Missinq him. & iKnow hes missinq me.

&- as Nelitza says - " if its meant to be , itlL be " So Lets just hope for the best .

Shes [ ^^ ]mad CooL btw- qo staLk herr [: