Ready for Better .

Things were getting better.. well they were feeling better. &then i got caught up in everything i thought was real.everything that wasnt.everything that isnt & never will be . Why do we do this? its not just a girl thing , guys do it too . We put all of ourselves into One person , knowing its gna blow up in your face. thinking its worth it , when in reality- it isnt worth SHIT. im so tired. Physically, Mentally, Emotionally? woah lets not even go there. ive been getting better at hiding how i feel , but lately i just feel like breaking down. i start crying &laughing hysterically at the same time. i myself dont even know how i feel anymore, how am i supposed to describe it to anyone else? You ask me whats wrong & i wanna scream EVERYTHING.im 15 , still a baby , yet ive gone through so much. So many things ive done, irrevirsible. im sick of feeling this way , im going to fight for love, happiness , friendship. Im going to fight for that feeling back. the feeling of LIVING. the feeling of BREATHING. im gna work my ass off in everyway possible. Because im ready for better.