release

Though everything has gotten better , i still dont feel complete. And im not sure why . Maybe its the breakup . Maybe its school , or stress or my sickness. idk . but music seems to make it better. i have no privacy ... no safe place to jus cry without ppl making a big deal about it. i just want to cry . i go in the shower and cry my eyes out , holding my breath , trying to make sure no one hears me. i wish i could jus scream... i feel like if i jus screammm on the top of my lungs, throw things, and jus cryy ... as loud as my heart needs to.. everything will be ok. maybe i could cry this off . i need to Releaseee this anger inside of me , the devil in me , the tears bottled inside. Blast the speakers, close my eyes , & go somewhere far far away ....