Then theres the whole relationship thinq. theres always one person i fall WAYY too fast for. Everyone else is just there. i feel bad saying that, but its true. i get bored easily, i move on , i just dont give a fuck. i feel bad hurting ppl . And i half die when im hurt. i Fall , i hurt, i qet up aqain. thts the way its always been.
i was on and off with this quy for about 5/6 months ? . . . . and in those 5 months i went through more than i think ive gone through with anyone. hes was everything to me. he was the reason for every smile , and the reason for every tear. He put me through hell & back and i stuck by his side. because thts what u do when yu realy care about someone. you stick around. iwasnt afraid to look stupid. well tht relationship ended horribly. or maybe it ddnt end yet, i cant tell . ithnk its really over this time though . and the thought of tht excites me. terrifies me. brings me to tears. i have someone new, whos everything i should have everything my ex isnt. and he makes me so happy. but for some reason . i thnk of my ex, and i cnt do anything but yell and cry. its not fair it didnt work. its not fair i qave it my all & was left with nothing. i put my heart and soul into tht relationship . Hes mad at me for trying to move on, and im mad at him for not understanding. TOO MUCH happened to qo back now. The relationship was destroyed beyond repair. And it took forever to accept it , but iknow now itll N e v e r work . Sometimes no matter how much you care, you have to accept tht some things just arent meant to be. And this is one of them. iLove him , & iwnt forqet him. but i have to let him qo now. ='/
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